You, You, Why Do You Persecute Me?

Carmelite Homily for the Feast of the Conversion of Saint Paul, January 25, 2024 

Today we are celebrating the Feast of the Conversion of Saint Paul.  It begins with these wonderful accounts from the Acts of the Apostles of Paul travelling to Damascus.  Suddenly there is a light.  Suddenly there is a voice, “Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?”  He falls to the ground; he’s blinded.  This is all happening on the exterior plane but I think it’s more happening on the interior.  Paul had bought into a system of domination, of elitism, of superiority, of judgment – very vertical.  He is of an elite tribe, he’s well-trained, he is a Pharisee, he’s impeccable in practice of the Law – vertical.  He dominates and he is persecuting those who follow Jesus, whose preaching is very horizontal: love of neighbor, bless those who persecute you, be brothers and sisters, Our Father.  I think it all of a sudden makes sense to him.  Jesus is right.  He had to rethink his life – conversion!  That’s the conversion of Saint Paul — rethinking his life.  That is why Saint Teresa of Avila calls Saint Paul the greatest of the mystics.  Because he had this great change of heart. 

That’s maybe what is going to happen to us if we buy into any mis-teaching or misguided embrace of thought: domination or superiority, whether in the family or in politics or in the country or in the church or anywhere.  Jesus’ message is so horizontal.  And it may require a “You, you, why do you persecute me?”  Whenever we are vertical Jesus will call us to live horizontally in his love.  

Saint Teresa of Avila