Saint Teresa of Avila Archives

Nourishing Bread

A Carmelite homily for Wednesday of the Third Week of Easter, 17 April 2024, Lectionary 275

Oftentimes people come to me saying: “Oh, my prayer is dry,” or “I’m going nowhere,” or “Life is empty.” I can sometimes think that. Saint Teresa of Avila has a quotation that I love. She says, “Self-knowledge is the bread upon which the soul is fed.” That’s how we get nourished. That’s how we find life. Bread is meant to nourish, to give life. And what is that bread but self-knowledge? In these gospels this week we have the ‘Bread of Life Discourse’ coming from John Chapter 6. But the Last Supper is John Chapter 13. So I think Jesus is meaning more than just Eucharist here. I think when he says “I am the Bread of Life” he is saying “I will teach you how to live; I will teach you who you are; I will teach what is important.” This is the Bread of Life! Saint Teresa is so right: “Self-knowledge is the bread upon which the soul is fed.” When you’re feeling empty, you’ve stopped exploring yourself; you’ve stopped knowing yourself. New roads are there and you don’t enter them. New vistas, new ways. This is the call: to go deeply and explore yourself. Then you will find life. Then you will find interest. Then your life will go somewhere. Because Jesus is the Bread of Life.

All About Who?

A Carmelite homily for either Tuesday (John 13:21-38) or Wednesday (Matthew 26:14-25) of Holy Week

I like to read the advice columns in the newspaper. And just this morning a man wrote in. He has hearing aids. He doesn’t like to go to his grandkids’ graduations because he can’t hear anything. It’s always in a gym. The acoustics are bad. He doesn’t want to go to graduations. So the reply was: graduation talks are always kinda the same so you’re not missing anything even if you heard well. It’s mostly about the graduates and you being there to support them. Being there to congratulate them. Not to listen to the talks. It’s not about you; it’s about them. And I think that’s the heart of today’s gospel. Judas didn’t get that message. It’s all about him – about money, or about power, or about authority, or about jealousy. It’s all about me. It’s all about me. It’s all about me. I think that’s the heart of the betrayal. He never changed to ‘it’s all about you; it’s about God; it’s about others.’ What can I do? The arrows are used to going in but sometime in our life they have to start going out. Saint Teresa of Avila had that same conversion experience. Here’s what she writes. Oh, she was a nun. She entered the convent because she didn’t want to get married because of the deplorable state women had in the state of marriage. So she entered the convent out of convenience. And she loved to gossip there. She loved meeting with people in the parlor. She was an observant but not a very fervent sister till this moment. She writes; this is from the Book of Her Life: “It happened to me one day upon entering the oratory I saw a statue for a certain feast to be celebrated in the house. It represented the much-wounded Christ. And it was very devotional so that beholding it I was utterly distressed in seeing him that way. For it well-represented what he suffered for us. I felt so keenly aware of how poorly I thanked him for those wounds that it seemed my heart broke. Beseeching him to strengthen me that I would no longer offend him I threw myself down before him with the greatest outpouring of tears.” That’s her conversion moment. Where it was no longer about me, my power, my control, my entertainments, my satisfaction, my selfishness, my needs. And it’s about Christ. It’s about neighbor. It’s about the other. It’s about the sisters. The arrow turned around that day. She calls it her conversion moment. That’s what, I think, is the call not only of any gospel but especially this one, where Judas didn’t get that message. He didn’t get that memo. If we don’t turn it around, woe is us.

Numbed Down

Carmelite homily for Thursday, March 21, 2024 – Lectionary 254 (John 8:51-59)

I find that I’m wasting a lot of time with Facebook! Facebook, you know, feeds you what you want to watch or you want to see. I like cats and I like kittens so I get all these cute kitten videos, cat videos, you know, the ten craziest thing your cat has done, or these cute kittens zooming around. I love it all. I waste a lot of time. But why? Because it is fun? Because it’s distracting? Because it’s numbing? I think more than anything, probably because it is numbing. I could be spending my time reading, studying, or praying. But I’m watching cute kittens instead because it numbs me from life. Saint Teresa of Avila has a great quote because she thinks that she is numbed from life. She writes in the Book of Her Life, “I wanted to live for I well understood that I was not living but was struggling with a shadow of death.” I think that’s oftentimes what we’re struggling with – is a shadow of death. We’re afraid of death, afraid of emptiness, afraid of not living, so we just numb ourselves with Facebook, or screens galore, or alcohol, or anything just to get through the day. We’re not interested in living. We’re interested only in surviving. In today’s gospel, I think that’s what Jesus is after the Pharisees about. He says, “If you believe in me you will never see death.” And they take it literally. But I think it means if you follow Jesus and do what he commands you won’t be numbed; you won’t be just surviving; you will be truly living. And if you’re truly living you’re not afraid of death because death is far from what you’re doing. You’re promoting life in others and in yourself. So I think that’s the call of today’s gospel, is to not numb ourselves with mind-numbing Facebook and social media; or mind-numbing alcohol or pharmaceuticals, or mind-numbing, you know, any screen or anything. But to live and stop struggling with a shadow of death.

Saint Joseph’s Day

Carmelite homily for Tuesday, March 19, 2024 – Solemnity of Saint Joseph, Husband of the Blessed Virgin Mary

The Carmelites have had a long relationship with Saint Joseph. Some of it fanciful, some of it historical; I will only touch some of the historical here. The Carmelites were founded in the Holy Land, where there was a devotion to Saint Joseph, but not in Europe. So when the Carmelite came to Europe, they brought this feast day with them. We introduced this feast day to the calendar. Now any first foundation like in a new land or a new way is named after Saint Joseph. That’s why Saint Teresa of Avila named the first house of her reform ‘Saint Joseph.’ He is the protector of the Carmelite Order. And we get, I think, this also from Saint Teresa. Here is what she writes in The Book of Her Life: “I took for my advocate the glorious Saint Joseph and earnestly recommended myself to him. It is an amazing thing the great favors God has granted me through the mediations of this blessed saint – the dangers I was freed from both of body and soul. Why? Because Jesus was subject to Saint Joseph while on earth for Joseph bore the title of Jesus’ father. So being the Lord’s tutor, Joseph could give the child any command and he would do it. So in heaven we ask Joseph to give any command to Jesus and he does whatever Joseph commands.” That’s why Joseph is the protector not only of the Carmelite Order but I think of you, me, everyone, everything. Because Jesus has no choice. Joseph is his father; he has to do what Joseph asks.

Fully Full

Carmelite homily for Thursday, March 14, 2024 – Lectionary 247 (John 5:31-47)

There are a lot of complainers out there. You know the example of a half-filled glass: do you see it half empty? or half full? And the key is to see it as half full. But there are some people out there that if you gave them a full glass, not even half full – full! And they would say, “but you left your fingerprints on it.” No matter what you do or what you say, you’re wrong and they complain. I think that’s what’s going on in today’s gospel. Jesus is preaching and the people – the chief priests, the scribes, the Pharisees – everybody is complaining. And so he says, “John the Baptist gave testimony to me, you ignored that; Moses gave testimony to me, you ignored that.” No matter what he does or says – complaints. My own solution has been that if I didn’t ask you for a critique, I don’t want a critique. And if you give me one I’m not going to look at it. But I think Teresa of Avila, Saint Teresa, has another solution, a better solution. She writes, “For a soul surrendered into God’s hands doesn’t care whether they say good or evil about it.” Her solution is to get really close to God. Get so close, be nestled in his arms, pressed against his heart, be filled with love. And then you really don’t care what they say because she’s right. “For a soul surrendered into God’s hands doesn’t care whether they say good or evil about it.” Let’s try that solution: get really close to God.

They Think They’re the Christ!

Carmelite homily for Sunday, March 10, 2024 – Lectionary 32 (John 3:14-21) – Fourth Sunday of Lent

When I was joining the Carmelites I thought that I should learn a little bit more about the Order I’m joining. So I picked up the works of Teresa of Avila, a big name in the Carmelite Order. But soon I threw the book on the ground saying, “this woman thinks she is the Christ. I cannot believe they canonized her!” So then I went to the next big figure in the Carmelites, Saint John of the Cross. I start reading him. And I throw the book on the ground. I cannot believe that this man thinks he is the Christ. I cannot believe they canonized him. But they’re on to something. In today’s gospel, Nicodemus comes to Jesus quietly and at night, to learn from him. And we get that famous line, John 3:16, “God so loved the world that he sent us his only Son, not to condemn the world, but that the world might be saved through him.” We kind of think it is a Get Out of Jail card. You just play “I have faith in Jesus and I’m home free.” No, I think God has an agenda besides getting out of jail free with Jesus. God’s agenda is to turn us into Jesus. To turn us into the Christ. Teresa of Avila is right. John of the Cross is right. We have this famous quotation of Teresa of Avila – you’ve heard it before – Christ has no body now on earth but yours. I think that’s what she’s trying to convey. That’s what Jesus is trying to convey to Nicodemus. “Christ has no body now on earth but yours. No hands, no feet on earth but yours. Yours are they eyes with which he looks compassion on this world. Yours are the feet with which he walks to do good. Yours are the hands with which he blesses all the world. Yours are the hands, yours are the feet, yours are the eyes, you are his body. Christ has no body now on earth but yours. No hands, no feet on earth but yours. Yours are the eyes with which he looks compassion on this world. Christ has no body now on earth but yours.” I think that’s the key here. That when our thoughts are like Jesus’, when our actions are like Jesus’, our compassion is like Jesus’, our love is like Jesus’, our forgiveness is like Jesus’, our actions and deeds are like Jesus’, the more they are, the more indistinguishable they are from Jesus, then we are the Christ. Christ is us on earth now today. Teresa is right. John is right. Jesus is right when talking to Nicodemus. That’s the call of life. That’s the call of the Father sending his Son. That’s the call of today’s gospel.

Seventy Times Seven

Carmelite homily for Tuesday, March 5, 2024 – Lectionary 238 (Matthew 18:21-35).

In today’s Gospel Simon asks a really good question, “How many times do I have to forgive my brother? As many as seven?” And Jesus answers, “Seventy times seven.” What’s going on here; first off, when the woman is anointing Jesus’ feet and the Pharisee says, “Uh, if he knew what kind of woman this is he wouldn’t let this happen.” And so Jesus lets the Pharisee have it, but then he closes with, “Besides, she is forgiven much for she loves much.” I think there’s a tie, there’s an intrinsic tie between love and forgiveness. So when Simon is asking this question about his brother, and his brother happens to be Andrew by the way, is there love lost there, is there love missing? As Saint Teresa of Avila says, “If we fail in love of our neighbor, we are lost…beg our Lord to give us this perfect love of neighbor.” That’s really what’s at stake here, not forgiveness but love of neighbor.

Our Father – Backwards

Carmelite Homily for Tuesday of the First Week of Lent, February 20, 2024 – Lectionary 225 (Matthew 6:7-15).

A few years ago my spiritual director gave me a task: to say the “Our Father” backwards. Not word by word backwards, that would be pointless, but phrase by phrase backwards, so that the meaning of those phrases can take on new life. Because we can whip through the “Our Father” in seven seconds, and none of those phrases have any meaning at that speed. Today in the Gospel Jesus gives us the “Our Father” – Matthew’s Gospel. And there is such value in here. For example, Saint Teresa of Avila, in her book, The Way of Perfection, says that just in those two words. She says, “In two words, Our Father, you fill our hands completely.” And she riffs for chapters on just those two words, Our Father. Tying it to the Prodigal Son; tying it be being brothers and sisters, tying it to that the son is always forgiven, tying it to if that’s our father what other titles or what other nobility do we need? She goes on and on in those two words. So that’s my task for you today: try to say the “Our Father” phrase by phrase backwards. Let me try it. Amen. Lead my not into evil. Deliver from temptation. As I forgive those who trespass against me, forgive me my trespasses. Give me my daily bread. Thy Kingdom come, thy will be done. Or – thy will be done, thy kingdom come. We’re doing this backwards. Our Father in heaven. Our Father. Amen.

Or Everything is Doomed

Carmelite homily for Ash Wednesday, February 14, 2024 – Lectionary 219 (Matthew 6:1-6,16-18)

Humility doesn’t mean being smarmy and allow people to walk all over you or to treat you like a doormat. No! Humility means not being controlled by your ego. That’s what we see in today’s Gospel. When you pray, don’t pray in front of everybody so everyone says, ‘look how holy she is.’ Or when you give gifts or donations don’t blow a trumpet or call attention to it so everyone says, ‘look how, how generous he is.’ Or when you’re fasting don’t look all beaten up so everyone can say, ‘look how god-focused she is.’ No, that’s all ego. The idea is to not let ego control this, but to let love control this, God control this, the other control this, your heart control this. This is the call for Ash Wednesday. Saint Teresa of Avila writes, “If there is no progress in humility, everything is going to be doomed.” Let’s make that the focus for this Lent – progress in humility. Which means simply, don’t be controlled by your ego, be controlled by love.

Loves Me More

Carmelite Homily for Thursday of the Fifth Week in Ordinary Time, February 8, 2024 – Lectionary 332 (Mark 7:24-30)

There was a young man; life on the streets; no job. A few parishioners decided to help him. They found him a low-income apartment. They found him a job. And he ruined it all. He didn’t show up for work; and he had people living with him and the landlord threw him out. And he said, “Everyone is right; they said that I would never amount to anything.” I said, “And you’re telling me that everybody is making you into this? What does God have to say? And what do you have to say?” I think that’s what is going on in today’s gospel. The Syrophoenician woman comes to Jesus and asks for healing for her daughter and he says, “I do not give food intended for the children to the dogs.” I think that he’s trying to check out what she has bought into. Because everybody called Syrophoenicians ‘dogs.’ They weren’t worth it. And she’s a woman besides, in a male-dominated culture. But he’s treating her like an equal. He’s trying to lift her up. Find out what she’s bought into – what fallacies or what stupidities she’s bought into. He is treating not that way, but like an equal. I think Saint Teresa of Avila says this nicely when she says, “O love, that loves me more than I can love myself, or even understand.” I think that’s what’s going on with this Syrophoenician woman – great love! And that’s what’s going on with Teresa of Avila – great love! And that’s what’s going on with us – great love! So no matter what we think about ourselves, Jesus loves us greatly. Let us respond to that.