Look Not

Carmelite homily for Wednesday, February 28, 2024 – Lectionary 232 (Matthew 20:17-28). 

Back when I was in college I was asked to be the caretaker of a professor’s house.  He was the dean of his school, while he was on an extended sabbatical.  Beautiful place – grand piano, great art on the walls, great musical selection – beautiful place.  I would invite my friends over, not so that we would be comfortable or just use the place, but to Show Off!  That’s what I was busy doing was showing off!  How much of our day is spent showing off?  They are all to look at me, or give me attention, or it’s all about me.  Me, My, I.   And I think that’s what we see in today’s gospel.  John and James send their mother to ask for positions of honor for the sons. Why?  Because they want to be more important than the rest.  And then the other disciples, the other apostles, all get angry at John and James and so they’re all upset too.  And Jesus says, “Can you drink the chalice?”  And they say, “We can!”  But the chalice is the chalice of humility.  It is not one they can easily drink after all, because they are far from it.  Saint John of the Cross says, “It is a great wisdom to know how to be silent.  Look at neither the remarks nor the deeds nor the lives of others.”  I think that all the apostles miss that and maybe that’s the chalice that Jesus wants them to drink.  To be silent and not look at each other, neither the remarks nor the deeds nor the lives.  To be content just to be in the company of Jesus. 

Saint John of the Cross